Posts Tagged ‘chum’
last day, another day
It’s my last day here at home in Singapore. Well.. nothing significant.. just another day I’ll sit through in front of this tiny laptop my sister owns. But there’s something about this day. I’m not really sure… I was up until 4am last night… but I was in bed around 2 am. I had a hard time falling asleep. I don’t know. It felt like I was having some anxiety attacks, but I wasn’t really sure. Anyway, eventually, I fell asleep.. and woke up at 12 noon. Haha. Bummer. I’ve already packed most of my stuff..my other clothes are still in the laundry. I can’t believe I’ll be leaving in hours. Dang. Anyway, my stay here has been generally fun. Of course except for those days which I sure wouldn’t like to remember. But I’m sure I’m going to remember everything. Hmm. I was planning to go to Bugis this afternoon. I’m not sure if I’m still going. Haha. I’m not excited to go home. I don’t want to go home yet. But I have no choice. I’m oppressed by my needs. And this one I don’t want to let go of is just a luxury. I can have this after everything. Who knows I might just go back here for Christmas…. tenen. hahaha.
On other stories:
Nov. 06!! Hahaha. It’s been so long since… #%@$@#$@. hahaha. and yeah, I must admit that I miss him. Not so much but yeah I do. There are moments when we talk about how we were so happy and young before. Sure, we want to go back to those days but it’s always better to live in the moments of now. This friend of mine.. we really haven’t gotten over everything yet. Yes, we”ve moved on but there are still times that we get lost and confused on who to blame for what happened. Both of us are at fault I guess. You can’t blame me for leaving you, as I can’t blame you for not taking me back. At least we’re both happy now, right?
The years apart were too awkward. We dragged the days, it was a miracle that you get through another day. That’s why, it felt so great that we settled everything.. ah, no not everything.. but most of it, and regained the friendship tha we once had. 
and yeah, I miss you too.
