I’m a little bit of everything all rolled into one…
February 22nd, 2011 § 1 Comment
Today was more tiring than usual. It felt like I was dragging myself to pick up the phone and call my clients.. To turn my seat to use my computer and to check my pending files in case I missed someone. Work is such a drag specially when you think about work as just work and nothing more.
Not that I’m not enjoying it anymore.. it’s just that sometimes it gets so monotonous that I lose the level of interest I used to have. I enjoy the work that I do.. But I feel like it’s taking so much of my time that I don’t really get to do the things that matter the most to me. Everything that I do is limited to whatever I can do with the little time I have left after work.
Also, I’m starting to ask myself what I’m doing in this line of work when I spent a quarter of my life preparing for something entirely different.
Practically speaking.. I can’t really be picky. I should be thankful that I have a decent job while others would kill to be in my position right now. Err. My mind is such a mess.
On other news:
I went to my boyfriend’s place for dinner today… And I realized something that I’ve never thought about before.
Inter racial conflict.
Okay. So we’re not really from different races but our cultures are a bit different.. But come to think of it.. We are more alike than different.. Maybe I just have to get used to this..
The dinner went well I guess.. I got to meet his aunt (his mom’s sister) and his cousins. And they’re all very welcoming. The problem again is with me. You see I’m a very detached person.. And I try to avoid getting too close to people especially when I’m not sure if they’re (or I am) gonna be around for a long time.
I really enjoyed tonight and I feel like I’ve just so spent my night with some of the most beautiful people I’ve ever known. Sigh.
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Ganun talaga. It’s what you call “getting to know them better”. If at first you feel like you’re not in good terms. at all, or awkward. hmmm give it a bit more time, siguro ilang months before you see them again. haha.
but it’s fine. it’s part of the process.