Screaming Infidelities

There are two things that I’d really like to have in this life..
1. The ability to go back in time;

2. and, the power to get the things I want, the way it is generally accepted.

Now, if you’re going to look at it, it will seem like I have a very complicated mind. Yes, I will admit that I do have. but I have my reasons.

Why do I want to go back in time? Who wouldn’t want to? Right?
I mean, I think it would be super fun to go back to my kindergarten years, back when I thought Santa Claus was as real as the Jollibee Mascot who was one of our guests during my Kindergarten Christmas party; or when I decided that I will take life seriously, after my High School graduation.. things might have been different…..

Who wouldn’t want to go back to the day where things were not complicated and life is a whole lot easier.

[to be continued..]

For the past few weeks I’ve been very very very busy with my acads. Thesis, papers, ethnographies, exams and what have you! Exhausting? Yeah, super. But more than that, I feel really sad that I am again, alone. layo noh? labo pa. Anyhoo, it’s 3 inthe morning and I have 2 exams today. I don’t know why I am not reviewing my handouts (I still have a lot tomemorize) but I just can’t sleep.

I’m a bothered kid, I know. But I’ve never been bothered like this before. There are so many things in my mind right now and I can’t even think about them all at once. Maybe, it’s just that all of the things I should have thought about before have all piled up into this great mess I can’t get out of.

But more than being a mess right now, I am really confused with all the things that’s been happening in my life.. from my practicum.. to my orgs… and even to what direction my future is leading me.

It’s too early to be bothered, but I am….

I hope I get over this quickly.

I know this blog won’t be enough but I’d like to thank all those people who listened, believed, and trusted my vision for the CAS Student Council.

Until now, I’m still lost for words. I know what to say, but I don’t know how to say it. I can’t seem to find the perfect words to express my feelings right now… But of course, this is just the beginning of another long journey. I am looking forward to AY 2009 – 2010.

It feels great to have the opportunity to give back to college that molded me to the person I am now.. to the heart of UP Manila. CAS.

SPECIAL MENTION:
Block 6-06 [mahal ko kayo!! ]
LCPards [thanks for fighting for me and fighting with me. thanks for listening to me every night and for bearing with me. I love you, PFF!]
Robin Aguila and Mary De Guzman [Goooo 07! Grabe, 3 years na pala. Time flies so fast, di ko na napapansin. Haha. Thanks for being my solid Campaign Managers for 3 years in a row.. the best kayo! i just want you both to know na I'm so happy that you were with me all those while.. it's always better when we're together! haha]
Aya Bautista [Kaya yan, this is just the beginning, galingan mo pa! =) Thanks for all the help. I've learned so much from you and I know, someday, matutupad din ang Lolo mo! Haha!]
Beckz Caisip
Lorra Sayson [para sa tapa!! hahaha. Good job darling!]
Mona Santuele
Len Aleria
Jill Avena[love you, nanay!]
Sigma Alpha Nu Sorority [Lahat na sisses! Hehehe. ]
Chia Olivar and Sheela Bautista
Paula Figuerres and Chai Montero
Jennifer Macapagal [waaaaaaaaah. thanks ate.. kahit wala ka dito, tinutulungan mo pa rin ako... mahal kita, uwi ka na ah?]
Jow Poblete
Rotaract UPM
UPM Indayog Dance Varsity
Bestsoc
Area Studies Major
Charles Salazar
To my VolCorps!! [Ange, Rizza, Iona, Fish, Jamie, Jeff, Camille, Anna, Becca, (mga 1st yr block 6), Kris, and lahaaaaaaaat kayo.... thanks for you all out support during the campaign. I hope suportahan niyo din ang council. =)]
DB S
Robert Go [mula nung 2nd yr Rep palang ako, at ngayon, nandyan ka pa rin para sumuporta. Salamat!! ]
Orcom 08 and 09 [specially sa mga batchmate ko na toxic na toxic sa kanilang buhay. mabuhay kayo. ]
Alpha Sigma Fraternity [Congrats Sprix!]
Terry Ridon
Dev Stud students =)
Com Sci people!
sa lahat lahat na..
BS Bio, BS Biochem, BA PolSci, BA PhilArts,
syempre Vodka Family [in fairness, pati si Luj andiyan din. =)]

kasama na rin yung mga taga-ibang college na sumuporta. =) maraming salamat. mabuhay kayo.
(para dun sa di ko naisama dyan, pinasasalamatan ko kayo ng buong puso…. di ko talaga maexpress lahat lahat lahat ng gusto kong sabihin. Maraming salamat!)

Simula pa lamang ito ng isang mahaba at nawa’y matiwasay na taon. Mabuhay tayong lahat.